A sinner, condemned, unclean

Okay so church today was amazing! Worship was awesome, the message was GOOD...just what I needed. Its funny, quite often I wake up on sunday morning and think to myself...oh I could skip today cos I bet its going to be a boring message or something that doesn't even relate to me. Yet on those sundays when I question it and I actually end up going, I'm ALWAYS blown away by what God is telling me. Its always something that hits close to home, or something that pertains to what I'm struggling with at the moment.

One of the songs they did today is one of my all time favorites. Its beautiful and well....I just adore it. I especially love hearing it from a man's deep voice...don't know why, but it moves me.

Now I'm not on here to preach but hey, its my blog...so I just wanna reflect on what the message said to me. Ephesians is my favorite book of the bible. (See the trend of my faves today? Its a God thing) And we went thru Ephesians ch4, concentrating on verses 25-32. Verse 30 says "And do not grieve the Holy Spirit of God, with whom you are sealed for the day of redemption." AKA don't make the Holy Spirit sad by your disobedience and sin, because He loves you and will be with you for eternity. Pastor Vinson made us all close our eyes and think about the saddest time of our life. He gave examples of the phone call telling you your teenage son died in a car accident, the doctor telling you that you have cancer, your husband saying he no longer loves you and wants a divorce. I went back to the day at the doctor's office, in the ultrasound room, when the doctor told us our first baby was no longer growing and had died weeks ago. I remember the grief I felt...it felt like death. Then Pastor Vinson asked us if we would wish that kind of grief on the person sitting next to us. No way. Well...when we sin, that is the type of feeling God gets. We sadden Him, upset Him, and He grieves for us. Its crazy, the Maker of heaven and earth gets sad when I lie, when I curse, when I lust. Thats going to take me a while to chew on and fully grasp.

Well, thats about all I have. I was thinking about what to blog about the whole ride home, and for some reason I thought it was going to be super long. But thats okay...I got out what needed out and I hope everyone has a wonderful sunday =) So I got no phone call from UTK this week, I'm praying that they were just busy and didn't make a decision yet. As much as moving away scares me, the opportunity is once in a lifetime. And we've given to God...if He wants us in Knoxville, I'll get the job. If He wants us to stay right we're at, they won't call. Simple as that.

PS...today is day 3 of potty training "bootcamp" as I call it. Day 1 we have 1 poop accident and 1 pee accident. Yesterday, same amount of accidents, but Lena did go thru a whole movie holding it til we got home and thru a very long nap. Today she hasn't had one accident...knock on wood! Wish us luck!